Have you ever been so afraid of something that just the thought of it made you feel like crying? Well, that’s how I feel about snakes. We’re talking hyperventilate-heart racing-can’t breathe kind of scared. The kind of scared where just the thought of potentially, maybe, some day running into a snake seriously makes me want to cry.
Well, I recently sat in a room with two (TWO!!) snakes that were not contained behind lock and key – and I didn’t die. Or hyperventilate. Or pass out. I mean, my heart was racing so fast I thought maybe I was going to die. And I definitely felt like throwing up just knowing the snakes were in the room. BUT, I stayed in my seat and I didn’t freak out or cry or force my friend to use her medical skills to resuscitate me (for which I’m sure she is grateful!).
Whew. I’m a little worked up just thinking about it. This is major progress, people! You have no idea how big this is for me.
A few weekends ago met some wonderful friends at a zoo for breakfast with the animals. It was a pretty cool event; we ate breakfast in a room with a sloth, a few monkeys, and several glass aquariums with assorted jungle creatures (you know, frogs, bugs, and yes, a snake). During breakfast, the zookeeper came in and talked about some different types of animals. She walked around with a hissing cockroach (to which my daughter said “eww! it’s a bug!”), a parrot, two snakes and an armadillo.
I was able to talk to her briefly before the event and she agreed not to bring the snakes over to our table (THANK GOD!) but I knew they’d be in the room. My lovely friend AC was going to leave the room with me and hang out outside until the snakes were gone, but I decided to try and just deal with it. I really didn’t want my daughter to see me so scared. I didn’t want my fear to make her afraid of something for no reason. So, I stuck it out. Granted, I didn’t look at the snakes – well, I got a quick glimpse of them by accident – but I looked out the window and played on my phone until they were safely put away.
It was hard, and it was scary, but I was okay. I dealt with my fear (sort of, if you include avoidance as a tactic), and I sat in a room with snakes that were not behind glass. YIKES.
But besides my stress at breakfast, I truly had a wonderful time visiting with friends during breakfast and while exploring the zoo. I loved that M got to play with their awesome girls and I got to catch up with someone I wish lived a lot closer! :)